The STORM

The storm is coming...

So yeah. I feel like I'm getting hit by a full blown attack... all in one week.

Lets see:
-Car got broken into... had to fight the anger that wanted to consume me. It was definitely a battle to keep my mouth pure and to keep from sinning in my anger.
-Saw my ex. Sounds funny huh? Its not that I'm angry at him or anything... but I was in shock. It brought up bad past memories and a peeled a lot of scabs that I thought I had gotten over.
-Anxiety with school and work. For some reason my anxiety with school and work has been worse and worse these past few weeks... and the moment I make ONE bad decision... my grave gets deeper and deeper.

I'm pleased to say God is going to win in this battle... and He will be with me in the storm. I just direly need prayer. More for the anxiety over school and work. I need direction and I've been praying like crazy. I DON'T want to misrepresent by not working at it as if working for the Lord... but there's no passion for school like I have when I'm studying the Lord. Is that a lame excuse? If so I'm sorry. Its just the truth and its how I feel.

I feel the past depression I use to have, creeping up on me. I want to escape through sleeping. I told someone today how church and Killeen is like a drug to me. Its my escape from the reality that I have responsibilities on other days.

Again. I need prayer. Advice maybe? I dont know.

rawr.